It's no fun

gwyneth pooped.
funny to know that something
like this would make me so happy.
Now they can start feeding her.
AND. On top of that, tricia can
talk. It's so exciting to know first
hand that she's getting better.


Getting sick is no fun.
Writing papers is no fun.
Reading stories that I
don't want to read is no fun.
In other words a lot in my
life is no fun right about now.

But.. well.. I was gonna say
I still have my health, but
I guess I really don't.
I still have Jason though.
The person that has to
struggle to keep me on
track. Poor guy.

College stresses me out. All along
I've been told that I wasn't going to
take some courses, and now I find
out that I do. Which puts me atleast
a year behind. Oh well. I have 4 1.2
years to do 3 years of work, i think.

scared

Today jason tried to kill himself with a rubber band.
He didn't succeed thank God. He scared me a lot though,
that's for sure.

I also figured out what he's getting for valentines day
today, but because he reads this.. I can't say what it is.

I was so happy to hear that trisha and gwyneth are
doing well today. I check in on them religiously.
They're such an amazing family, and I really hope
that I can be half the person trisha is.

inspired

There are things in this world that I thought I
would never find, then he showed me that he
is those things. He's love, and hope. He's taught
me so much over the past few months, and I can't
believe that he wants to spend the rest of his life
with me.

It's an amazing feeling knowing that my life is
falling into place finally. I knew that if I would
just be patient God would show me what he's
had planned for me. Nothing I would of ever
imagined can ever compare to what I have now.
I really wouldn't trade it for the world.

I find myself reading nathan's blog, which by the
way, you should check out, confessions of a cf husband.
His love for tricia inspires me. Her battle inspires me,
and most of all, their beautiful baby girl inspires me.
When all is said and done, they are inspirational as a
family, and I can't wait to hear about when tricia meets
her baby girl for the first time.

I never realized how good it would feel to just have a place
to write down whatever I want. But, now I know. It's nice
to just talk and not need a response.